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This is day 2 of Andrew sitting in his apartment by himself. I don't really feel as though I especially want to see people, but eh, I feel like I should. I'm not feeling much of anything. I'm sick of thinking about my boyfriend mostly. I've been distancing myself via communications between us because of my stupid quest for experience. I feel as though I haven't yet reached the pinnacle of my life and if that IS the case, why should I pick someone to settle on when him being there takes away possible experiences that could present themselves. I only have select time here on this planet and being humans, we tend to want to fall into routine to feel comfort. (notice the parallels between comfort and conform) Venturing myself into the world of disastrous heart-ache and potential great people is exciting in it's pros and cons. But, I care very very much for this boy. Enough to say love I suppose.
Cooking food has become extremely hard as well. Not a physical incapability, but a darkened rain-cloud hanging over my head. It seems if left to my own devices, I will always opt for laziness. I just don't want to. Maybe having someone that is always around is a good idea... But, then I just crave the solo life. Maybe self-definition hasn't finished rooting itself inside me and perhaps this is still a very early point in my life, but I want more experiences I feel like I'm not getting being in a place that's so new with set parameters. So basic things such as cooking food and having fun will be things I just want to do or do without thinking, instead of pushing aside the bushes and forcing myself to go on a walk to leave my apartment.
I didn't even get myself dressed today.
Oh well. I work tomorrow. I'll get out and get my check in the bank then.
I'm also oh so very poor.
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[11 May 2009|03:16pm] |
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I officially start tomorrow at One Girls treasure.
1 to 5 for training.
Upon review over my previous posts, realizing all my posts on livejournal were from high school, it's a weird mix of nostalgia and embarrassment.
Friendships... blahblahblah. All the things that seemed so important.
Also my drive to make everything super depressing just to appear more gothy. I was real neat.
In other news. I really really love A Haunting.
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Blah blah blah.
I'm updating.
Why?
Mehhhhh. Cara's on here. That's probably worth it.
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[23 Feb 2005|08:46am] |
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Today has been a mediocre day, not bad, not good, just bleh...i hate days like that, anywho, i'm sitin here in first block with nothing better to do then get on live journal, which i haven't even touched in ages, and write, i r amazing, lol, let me tell you about it, anywho, just thought i would pop in and say ello, alright, adios amigos...au revoir mes amis...chinchinphooey...idk, don't ask
me
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[22 Feb 2005|08:16am] |
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hey, haven't written in a long ass while, but anywho, i think that i should stop thinking to myself so much, because, when i think to myself, i guess i overanylise a situation and make it worse...well lately...that is what i seem to be doing the most...anyway, i hate ruining people's lives, i feel like i have ruined the lives of the friends i have...along with other people, so take my word of advice, prolly not a good thing for me to get too close to people right now...:(....anyway, so i will try to update a little more on this, who knows, maybe i will write a lot on this...idk...anyway, gunna let you all go, bye
later days and later nights, always end, in aweful sights
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[17 Sep 2004|02:14pm] |
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hello, this is me again, yes, i have not written an entry in a long long time, so i thought that i should, lol! Ya know, this whole school year has been crap, lol! I am so tired of people being stupid, ya know, friends aren't people that you just like, think, ya i can talk to them one day, and eh, i can be mad at them for this long, that is bs, if u r friends, stay that way, lol, ne who, i am tired of ppl pretending to be friends, and not...so yah, that is my 2 cents, lol, i better go!
luv u mel!
cya ash!
->roo<-
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[15 Jul 2004|06:47pm] |
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Hey, this is an entry for everyone who points fingers. I am tired of it, and if there is one thing i have learned the most from everyone, is to let people know my true emotions, so here they are. Do we all remember that wonderful time when we all were fighting....hmm....let's think here, i do, and do you also remember who everyone ended up hurting the most, um...hmmmm....once again, i do, it was me, and no one really seemed to realize that except for carmel, because after the whole fight, she told me that she realized who had stuck by her side throughout the entire fight. Well i would like every one to know, who it was that stuck by their side too....ME....and who do we continually talk about doing wrong....me....my fucking life revolves around the friends who constantly tell me what i am doing wrong, and i change my whole fucking life around, just for them, and look, none of this is to hurt ne one, and none of this is to end friendships, i am just tired of fucking being picked on...
ok......i am going to start a little list of things that need to be addressed.....
1) We need to quit talking behind backs, this is quite stupid and hurts peopl's feelings, i know how cheesy that sounds, but look, it is the truth! It frieken hurts.
2) I think we all need to just go somewhere and make our friendships anew. I don't care what ne one says, but i do, we need to start over, have a new fresh beginning, and be merry!
3) This is my idea, we are all going to have to come to what i will call, "The big decision" because friendships can not go on like this! We need to make a big decision about what is going to happen with everyone! Such as wheather it we all be friends, or mortal enemies, we need this all straightened out, so we will plan a date on livejournal where we can all get together at my house or wherever for an ENTIRE DAY and just yell scream pouce claw whatever you know? I will need everyone to submit dates so i know, ok? This is extremely important!
I need a comment from all of you on this, or else i just might explode.....
bye
->{roo}<-
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| I GOT THE JOB!!! |
[13 Jul 2004|12:23pm] |
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It made me so happy last Saturday when i found out i got the job at WOF!!! I have worked for 2 days now, yes prrty tiring, but hey, fun none-the-less! Lol, sorry, i will stop talking about that, ne who, my sister is going to be gone from my house until like friday when she comes back because she went away to a v-ball camp! It makes me happy, ne who, better go, cya'll
luv u mel!!!!
->{roo}<-
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| I MIGHT GET THE JOB!!! |
[05 Jul 2004|11:57pm] |
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I am so excited, soon, i might be gettin' a job at Worlds of Fun! And i might be in the same department as Carmel!!! It is so exciting!!! If this doesn't work out, then oh well, i am getting applications anywho from other places such as Kmart and such, but yah, today, she talked to her supervisor and put a sticky note on her boss's desk saying my name and that i had applied for the job and that she had written the sticky note. Now i just have to wait for the phone call! They should call soon, if not, then they didn't like my first interveiw. But oh well, i hope, i really do hope, i get this job! ne who, better go, cy'all!
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(ps. ty tres much carmel! luv u!!!)
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[04 Jul 2004|11:26pm] |
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hey everyone! I want to wish everyone a happy fourth of July! Tonight was rather fun pour moi, because we went to my parent's friends house and i made a new friend, his name was bryan, twas cool, so yah, we had a grape throwing and catching in mouth contest, twas awesome! And there was A HELL OF A LOT OF FIREWORKS!!!! it was like, le wow!!!
alright, i'm gunna go,
cya'll
luv u mel!
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[27 Jun 2004|05:58pm] |
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yup, tis me again, the distant shadow that lurks and lets himself known
only a few times! lol, ne who, yes i am writing again, wow, i never
really write any more, lol, i really should, Shakspeare camp is over
and shtuff, so yah, i am really bored and need to find shumptin' to do!
Le gr......well ne who, i'm looking on this website called
gothicauctions.com, it has some perrty neat shtuff in it, well, minus
all the wicca stuff, that shit is just flat out annoying as hell, but
the other stuff is cool! Like this gauntlet with three buckles on it,
wow, i want it so bad, and if you wanted to buy it right now, it is
only 7 dollars! It is amazing, ne who, yah, guess what? I am
actually studying for my permit test, and i have a question for
everyone, when you turn 16 if you get your permit after your 16
birthday, do you have to wait the 6 months for your regular liscense or
do you just need the 20 hours? plz let me know! lol, ok, well i better
go, cya'll,
luv u mel!
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hey everyone! How is your summer going? Dude, mine is, well, ok i guess, shakespeare camp every day, which is fun and all, but Cathleen, the camp manager, is a bitch! She just needs to burn in hell, i mean, every one in the camp hates her and i have hated her for the past 3 months she has taught shakespeare camp! She is such a stupid ass, who is so stupid, when you ask her a question, this is her response, "well, um, i don't know, but on the other thing you are working on, let's discuss that!" GOD SHE IS DUMB! ok, had to get that off my chest, cya'll
luv u mel
-{roo}-
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[07 Jun 2004|10:43pm] |
i just got home, and i have no clue why i just said choo choo as the
title, wow, i'm so weird. Ne who, i don't know what to say
except, Colorado was ok, i mean, it wasn't heaven, but hey, it was
ok. ne who, better go, cya!
luv u mel
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| Entry on Matt |
[26 May 2004|11:22am] |
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i wrote this a while ago, but never got saved for sum reason so here it is again,
Mathew Vernon Mullin II. That is his full fucking ass name. He is the definition of a man-whore. Ok, well, when he says stuff like i wanna slap your ass to my girlfriend, well, those weren't his exact words, but she can't really remember the exact words, then you have a problem with me. Because roo may seem like the kinda person you can step on, but matt, your shoes are made of shit. And that is what you are going to be if you don't lay your FUCKING hands off my girlfriend, because, she is mine, and mine alone. I know that may sound self-centered, but i love her with all of my heart, she is my true love, and i would fight to the end for her love, so that is why, if he doesn't leave her the hell alone, he is going to be more than dead...he won't even be able to go to an afterlife. If he does, hell will be a paradise for after what i do to him...*gets pissed and starts pacing* If that ass hole ever touches you carmel, his ass is going in so much grass! I love you! I don't wanna lose you, i am just afeared if you are friends with him he might try something on you, that is why i want him dead. None of this was your fault. It was mine for turning ok with him for a few days....I knew i should not have let him suade me with his nice words and nice actions towards me, but i kept my guard up, and now, he is going to die. Plz let me kill him carmel, plz!!!!!!
i heart all my friends
but especially u mel
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[26 May 2004|10:30am] |
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i'm in computer apps and i am just about to make the shortest entry ever! hah! i win, what, idk...lol
luv u mel
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[17 May 2004|03:27pm] |
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I have some news from last weekend that may shock some people, but i really don't care....Carmel and i are engaged...no...not for us to get married any time soon, but you know, for like the future, in a couple of years, i got her a ring and everything...and no matter what ppl may think/say....nothing can change my mind for how strong my love is for her! We have been through the best and worst of times together.....even though we haven't been going out that long....it seems like forever! And that is good enough pour moi! And we are happy with each other, and we are both in agreement that we want to get married....people say you can't find your true love in high school.....but i know for a fact you can, because that is who carmel is, my tru luv....and nothing will ever take me away from her......EVER!.....i proposed to her too with that ring....and if you want proof....look at her ring finger.....that is what i gave her.....it may not be much, because people think that like......i have lots of money......but not of my own....that is my parents money....not mine! That was of what little to no money i have left......from the BITCH!!!!! Who made me buy her ne thing she so pleased! Ne who, just thought i would get that out in the open for everyone to know! I love you always carmel!
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[14 May 2004|10:17am] |
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i don't write that much ne more, sorry everyone, but i don't, i just have kinda....idk, been too busy to write on here, w/ everyone fighting and everything!
luv u mel
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[08 May 2004|10:06am] |
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it has been a long time since i have typed in here! i'm sorry for the long time, i have just been busy! lol, ne who, i would just like everyone to know, my cat is officially the devil! Her cute appearance on the out side is just a front! She is really evil! She is in w/ the secret society that is Chipmunkian! Lol, i really need to find a hobby or sumthing! lol, but ne who, well, i have nothing more to say really, lol, but if i think of sumthing, i will write another entry! lol!
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